Hitomi never had thought about what dying would feel like. But as she felt the pain of the girl fangs buried in her neck, drinking up her life’s blood, she slowly began to realize what it was like. You saw your memories, repeatedly like some kind of movie that you were in but don’t remember being a part of. You saw everything from your perspective. Things you didn’t notice and things you did but didn’t want to notice it.
Though through her muddled mind, she did think about a couple of things. One being that this was actually painful, it hurt. If it weren’t for that fact that the girl was literally pressed to her in every which way she might be squirming like a wild animal, trying to escape. She did that every once and a while in the beginning. But as she continued went on, things felt difficult. Her body felt heavy like lead and she felt like she could easily welcome the fate that was going to come to her. Homura had made it clear what that was exactly… She was going to die.
Unfortunately, it didn’t come as easy as Hitomi thought it would. Whenever she felt herself losing consciousness, the warm taste of possibly being out of the pain coming, something happened. The first time was the girl’s fangs sinking deeper into her throat, the sharp pain traveling up her neck as she tried to breathe and get herself away from the girl.
The second time was more of a surprise to her. She suddenly was slammed against the back of the wall. The girl let out a gasp of pain as she felt the pain go down her spine and probably breaking something. She definitely was bruised in some way, that was for sure. Something hurt her and she almost felt tired of it, of the pain of this. It was already difficult to breathe, she just wanted it to end. Stop, just made the pain stop already.
When she thought she was finally going to slip into unconsciousness the girl ripped her fangs out of her neck. The girl finally had a chance to breathe properly and she let out a cough as she tried to get her breathing patterns to something more normal. As she gripped her neck tightly to try and stop the bleeding, she felt the girl put a distance between them.
She… had been spared? But… why? She was expecting Homura to kill her so the thought of actually being spared was… odd. Her words honestly didn’t help her make sense as to why she was spared either. Especially when Homura had seemed so upset earlier. It took her a while to find her breathing, her voice again. But when she did she wasted no time to use it.
“A-Akemi-san…? W-Why?” It was a simple question. But probably one of the most important questions she had ever asked someone. “W-Why… am I still alive? I-I had… thought…”
|| { † } There was a moment of silence. Long, awkward, and filled with little more than heaved breaths from the both of them and the dripping of blood from the corners of Homura’s lips. The question ’why?’ repeated in her brain like a broken record. Why? Why this girl and why on this occasion?
There was a shifting in front of her, which brought her attention to the human under her own shaking clutches. Hitomi had a sleeve pressed to the grisly wound, trying to collect the remaining droplets of her life together the best she could, it looked like. While there was no blaming her for that, it annoyed Homura more that the fact she survived was her fault.
Although she’d taken quite a good amount of blood from her, there was no telling anymore whether Hitomi would live or die tonight. Most likely live, thanks to Homura and that unanticipated mercy of hers.
Christ, she couldn’t even look the green-haired girl directly into the eye due to her own disorientation. But it didn’t take a genius to work out how she’d probably put the human through a great deal of both physical and mental torture for one night, both the overwhelming fear of death and the overwhelming relief of being spared. Not even to mention the deep injuries that were now dug into the green-haired’s neck, ones that probably would take medical assistance to live through. Homura had definitely given Hitomi more than just another memory.
So…why? Why couldn’t she stop just the very idea of Hitomi getting out and telling the story of tonight as she lived? The vampire couldn’t comprehend why her guilty conscience decided to make an unexpected, unwanted return. Was it Madoka? She was just trying to protect Madoka from the beginning. If ‘Madoka’ was within her and guiding her, then why wasn’t she 'there’ during all of her other kills? Hitomi in previous timelines included?
Why?.
…That was a question that hadn’t been released from her own lips. There it was. The three-letter word. And now Hitomi had caught her thoughts before she’d even voiced them intelligently…
❝…Does it look as if…I know the answer to that?❞ Homura spat coldly through ragged breaths and a stern glare. Her eyes were still glowing, as if she was more than ready to attack her again at any second.
❝… In fact, I wanted to ask you the same question… why haven’t I killed you? Something within you…repels me…Which is lucky enough for you, Shizuki Hitomi, isn’t it?❞
She balled fingers into a fist and forcefully slammed it against the wall next to the girl in frustration. The impact even cracked the brick a little.
This blog is rather set on dark and emotionally-heavy themes, focusing particularly on Homura’s descent into madness and how her own mind and lust for a completed goal has twisted her into a literal monster. As you can tell, this is an AU of sorts. Think Homura's ability to unconsciously warp reality in Rebellion; that sort of logic applies here.
The key thing to remember is how Homura is not a vampire in the traditional sense--rather something halfway between a Magical Girl and a Witch. The part of her that demands life energy to survive comes from her Witch side. This is explained in full in the details page.
This blog is multifandom and selective, meaning that I will interact with mutuals only. I always check out followers' blogs and their rules, but I may not necessarily always follow back. This is not because I do not like your blog or your character, but most likely because I cannot see our characters interacting, or too much OOC content is posted. I appreciate OOC interaction, however!
The main set timeline for this blog is ‘Homura has just transferred into Mitakihara’ upon initial interaction. Something also worth mentioning is that for a few hundred timelines in Homura's universe, Walpurgisnacht hasn't happened, and so is unlikely to happen in this one.
Multi-ship. Each ship/interaction will take place in its own timeline. I generally don't romantically ship Homura anyway, but when it does it will have to happen with chemistry.
No smut will happen on this blog. Any heated situations will fade to black once intimate enough. Besides, Homura's physical age is that of a minor.
Anything that could trigger in particular (that is not to be expected with the nature of this blog, eg. blood) will be tagged. Though if anything regarding Vampirism wigs you out, I really don't recommend following for the sake of your comfort.
Homura can’t be killed, and even in the rare instances where she does ‘die’, she is immediately resurrected by her magic. Therefore, please do not try and kill her and expect her to stay dead. See here for more information about why that is. However, she can be badly hurt/incapacitated-- though please try to tell me before you plan on doing so.
Unprompted greeters/starters tend to throw me a bit, so please tell me beforehand if you want to interact! Whether it's a personal message or a like of my starter call, I don't mind, as long as I'm aware of it first.
All icons, graphics, ideas, etc are mine and are not up for grabs. I have spent a lot of time and effort into developing this muse so if anything is stolen I will probably be very sad :'( Please do not take anything without asking me first. Art credits are listed in my credits page.
I am very forgetful so please be patient with me. I'm somehow great at losing threads so come talk to me if you've been waiting on me for a while and you wish to continue.
Concerning the Mun: hello, my name is Andy! I'm an aspiring musician from the UK. My pronouns are She/They and I'm in my late teens. I'm a student in college and I work a job, so as a result I may be quite busy most of the time. However, I have a skype and a personal blog that can be asked for should you wish to reach me!
Did you know that magic can manipulate your biology?
For my best friend.
If it's for her, what I become does not matter anymore. What I make myself does not matter anymore. I am a monster, but at least with some excuse.
- In Summary -
This Homura is a Half Magical Girl, Half Witch, plus borderline insane as a result of the horrors she has witnessed in repeating the same month over and over hundreds of times. She was the one who brought her 'Vampire' act onto herself by unwittingly manipulating her own mind until it became a hell she had no choice but to live.
- Vampirism -
After ten years of being lost in time, the sand in Homura's time shield finally ran out- stripping her of her main source of magic. However, her goal of saving Madoka still hadn't been fulfilled. The only way she could carry on and keep living was to sacrifice her own life energy for the exchange of more magic. Though, using such powerful time magic warranted the consumption of plenty more energy than she already had-- thus began her drinking of human blood to replenish her power over time and, in turn, her own life.
Her thirst for blood is really a thirst for the time energy in an unfinished human life. Homura didn't want to admit how far she had fallen, so she subconsciously created the lie that she was a 'vampire' around herself as a coping mechanism. Over time, her biology warped --and she soon found herself completely dependent on only blood to survive.
Homura has lost the ability to die. Until her wish of saving Madoka is finally granted, the potent karmic destiny that has been accumalating around her for so many years will always bring her back to life without fail. For this, she has no choice but to keep travelling in time and pursuing her goal -- however ambiguous it may be by now.
- History -
Taking a life to keep herself living was an act that Homura initially thought she could never forgive herself for. Her first kill for blood left her traumatised and almost caused her to fall to despair. Though she knew she couldn't give up on her task, so she kept going while being merciful when she could.
At some point, she was caught by an underground institute that had been monitoring Magical Girl activity, whilst she was stealing weapons. She spent the month captured and tortured for information --constrained so she couldn't use her magic to escape. She learnt the hard way of the differences between Magical Girl and human after enduring such torment and, after seizing a chance to finally escape,
A bloodbath had resulted of her first 'snap'. After the rampage, she wanted to accept that she was a killer but knew that if she realised what she truly was it would be enough to make her go mad. And so her 'vampire' façade began to subconsciously stage-- to give herself an 'excuse' for killing people both for survival and progress, an excuse which meant that Madoka's will would not go ignored.
- Existence -
Homura doesn't think of herself as 'alive' anymore, and therefore doesn't value the lives of others as well as her own. She believes that her true death took place when her time sand ran out. She is callous, cold and merciless and cares only for some certain others. After her month in captivity, she has developed a loathing for mankind as she's realised the extent of human greed and the truth behind their nature. Her only purpose now is defeating the Incubators, being at a futile war with fate.
Occasionally she has been known to use and toy with the feelings of others for her own personal gain, including using them as a free meal and a 'release' for surpressed emotions. This is usually done without remorse.
- Strengths -
Beautiful and dangerous, Homura Akemi is clever, athletic and incredibly mysterious. As both a Magical Girl and a 'vampire', Homura is in no doubt powerful. Having lived for so long, she is experienced with her magic and weaponry. She is very fast with incredible reflexes. Her keen perceptions have adapted to be able to sense the strength of blood and energy around her. She is shrewd, calculating and determined, and will stop at nothing if she has a goal.
She has the magic ability to freeze time once in her Magical Girl outfit, and to use her shield to reset the timeline back one month once things go awry enough. She also has the ability to travel and manoeuver quickly with ease. Homura has fangs (which she uses magic to conceal), and when hungry or irritated enough, her eyes might also glow a deep shade of red. Her power of hypnotism is in development, but she has the natural ability of manipulation within her.
- Weaknesses -
Homura's main weakness in terms of magic is being constricted. Although she's strong, if the binds are tight enough, she cannot use her magic to get herself out of the situation. This kind of circumstance leaves her very vulnerable -- but fortunately for her, not many have figured that out yet.
Her other weakness is how easily exhausted and irresponsible she can be after using bouts of her magic, especially if she's low on blood. For this, she will hunt and drink quite regularly--leaving plenty of opportunity for enemies to attack while she is weak/hungry. She hunts during the night as, while sunlight doesn't burn her, it tends to drain her of her energy. Inspired by vampire lore, she is sensitive to religious imagery and holy water. If staked, she will be sent into a state of comatose until she can be nursed to health with blood by whoever can find her in time.
The more tainted her soul gem, the more hysteric and insanity-driven she will become. A completely grief-consumed gem means chaos and bloodshed for Homura and everyone around her until she can drink enough blood (though the required amount of blood to return to some degree of sanity tends to result in destructive mass murder -- much like what happened in the Facility).
Destroying her soul gem would not affect her; it would just reform. Homura physically cannot die, for if she is killed, her karmic automatically brings her back to life (most of the time against her own will).
Halfway between a Magical Girl and a Witch, Homura fights to stay sane, using the guise of a 'Vampire' to deter her mind from accepting what she truly is. Having looped for what could be over a century's worth of years due to the Incubators' sadistic game, she does wonder how much longer she can keep trying to save Madoka before inevitably succumbing to bloodlust.
SUBVERSE 1- VERSE V
VERSE SHARED WITH FANCIULLAVERDE. VARIANT OF MAINVERSE.
Fighting with Madoka has its consequences as Homura finds that her affections have somehow shifted onto a certain green-haired rich girl, Shizuki Hitomi. Of course Homura would deal with that by trying to kill said girl, albeit surprising herself when she finds she can't stop saving the one who's already dug her pristine and proper nails into the Vampire's zombified heart.
SUBVERSE 2- VAGABOND
VAMPIRE HOMURA TAKES ON A KYOUKO SAKURA LIFESTYLE.
In which Homura has given up on enrolling into Mitakihara High, and now wanders the city streets instead. Hoodie-clad and technically unregistered, Homura lives dedicating her time to hunting Incubators and snacking on yet more civilians. She's developed a tendency to be capricious, and is almost never seen without a smirk and an unhinged gleam in her eye.
V2. IMMORTAL
TEXTBOOK VAMPIRE VERSE. TIME MOVES IN LINEAR AND MAGIC IS UNHEARD OF.
Born as a young orphan girl in 18th century Edo Japan, she was sired seventeen years later by an individual only known as "Q". Standing the trials of time and witnessing the dawn of a new world, Homura walks the Earth today as a Creature of the Night -- the Vampire. Unaware of the magical world; most of her encounters take place after sundown. Homura's personality mostly resembles Akuma Homura in this universe. Her reasons for pursuing the maiden known as Kaname Madoka are unknown.
V3. MODERN
COLLEGE AU. HUMAN, UNFORTUNATELY.
Homura, 19 years of age, an apathetic nerd who likes grape juice and also to pretend she's undead (the aloof and mysterious disposition helps) mainly so she doesn't have to deal with the reality of how she's stuck with The Roomate From Hell and a forever-unrequited crush on that pink-haired girl down the hall.
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